Full Lunar Eclipse in Capricorn: Selfkeeping

Brace for a bump in the road, Spellkittens™️. Life is serving up more mess even as you’re finding it hard to clean up the last one. This is the last phase of a whirlwind that started late May, and it should have you breathing a sigh of relief but also maybe crying into your beer a little. The Lunar eclipse in Capricorn is perfectly poised to bring out your worst fears and simultaneously dispel them, as it brings an important situation in your domestic life to culmination. There’s a shadowy nature to this penumbral lunation, implying that all is not as it seems and deeper realities are bubbling to the surface. More will be revealed and it will help you make decisions. 

The summer has been pocked with eclipses that have all served to help speed up time and accelerate life’s motion. You’re learning a life lesson: anything can happen. As Joan Didion says over and over in The Year of Magical Thinking: “Life changes in an instant. You sit down to dinner and life as you know it ends.” It can be that immediate and that irrevocable. And there are times it requires absolute trust in yourself or a higher power to get through it. Like right now.

Inspired by this confidence that things can change, try your best to let go of things that must end at this time. Likely, there will be a few situations that you know are dead and need to be cleaned out. It’s so hard and can be painful but acceptance of what is not living and will never return will free you up to reimagine what could be. As we’re still in the throes of Mercury retrograde, expect old flames, old jobs, childhood friends, and all manner of exes to come forward looking for resolution or reignition. Only you’ll know, but it may be time to cut a few cords and loosen your grip on the past. With Cancer (the sign that rules the moon and the past) strongly represented at this full moon, emotional issues will come to the fray to be digested and dealt with maturely. As childlike as you’ll feel right now, you’ll have a larger pull to handle yourself with decorum and self-respect. Sometimes we can’t escape the stuff we’ve drudged up. Sometimes our phone is dead, the money runs out and we have nowhere to run. This moon is about sitting with the discomfort of existence. It’s time to face the music and eat the shit sandwich.

Parental issues can come up around this time. Family feels more important than usual, with Cancer and Capricorn (mommy and daddy signs) in a direct face off for attention inside you. You need to be your own mom and be your own dad right now. A bottomless pit of neediness will be jiggled free at this eclipse. Joan Didion said: “I feel like a motherless child” in reference to her own grief after her husband died. The self-pity that can flare during this time may show you taking on the role of the victim and forgetting how rich and strong you are because you feel so defenseless. Take your power back, shut off the part of your brain that feels betrayed or lost and just DO SOMETHING. Anything. That’s the gift of Capricorn. If you do the work—any work—you start to feel like you deserve to be here. It can be the smallest discipline but it is an anchor for your self-worth and a purpose that defines you in retrospect. Your instinct will be to take things personally and get defensive in the two weeks surrounding this full moon, but question that impulse—the angst is protecting a tender flower. You’re learning to see the bigger picture and protect *yourself* instead of trying to manipulate others into doing your work for you.

xoxo,

Hayley

Read: The Year of Magical Thinking by Joan Didion

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