Harvest Full Moon in Aries - Heart of GOLD
And we descend to the bottom. The FIRST full moon of October is in Aries. Yes—the rumors are true: we have two full moons in October (that’s a blue moon) and you should expect the florid Hellscape of 2020 to finally completely reveal itself like a blooming basilisk. I think it’s good. No, I know it’s good. But this will be the most active month, where others were more retreating, inward, or even depressing. You are being activated, Spellkittens™ and it’s time to bare your claws.
Reasons this month is wildt:
1) Mercury is Retrograde on Oct 14th, along with Mars, Uranus, Neptune, and Pluto until…
2) Pluto turns direct on Oct 4th just in time for Scorpio season to start on October 22nd - giving us a front-row tour of the abyss and a scrapbook-style review of old trauma.
3) Each of the THREE moons this month is activated by constellations of tense aspects and fixed stars that initiate fated changes.
4) The sensitive blue moon in Taurus falls on Halloween night. Yeah.
This is primo *activity* in an astrological sense, and I would be surprised if there weren’t minute to minute fluctuations in your mood and definite changes of plans throughout the month until you kind of just stop planning altogether. With much retrograde motion between Mercury and Mars this month, a lot of the energy you put out there seems to disappear into vapor. It’s as if you are making elaborate sandcastles because you are pent tf up with creative energy yet the ocean continues to do its thing and destroy your handiwork. You can’t blame the ocean and you can’t blame yourself for what happens. Doesn’t matter. You return to the canvas. Start again.
It’s ok if things go off the rails over the next two weeks and if you have a hard time focusing, you’re not the only one. You will be pulled in many directions while the full moon is active, but the urgent needs will reveal themselves this week and provide you with priorities. Things happening now are coming up to be noticed because they have been here for a while. No errant threads of storyline: it NEEDS to be taken care of. With the emergency that Aries energy provides, it will feel like now or never. You are making decisions this month and they change your course forever, even if the decision is not to choose at all.
This full moon is reminding us where we’ve come from and all the little stacks of wounds that forever make us who we are. With the only planet (ok planetoid) even semi-involved tonight being Chiron—and he is up the moon’s ASS—you’re likely feeling a little upset this week or at the very least intense. It may be something really stupid that has you miffed or it could be a sense of well-earned self-righteousness, but no matter what it’s personal. Aries tends to make us take events super personally because it rules the self: the body, the identity, “me”…and babies and infants, if that gives you any idea of what sort of emotional weather you’re wading through over the next two weeks. You are being invited to be selfish and put the oxygen mask on yourself first this week, so you can be the hero at the eleventh hour.
Aries isn’t just baby, he’s the warrior too, someone with enough foolishness and/or wisdom to put his life on the line in cavalier, courtly fashion. There is wisdom that will come up for you during this time: you are a lot braver than you think and you’re being called to speak up, stand up, or scream. Not everything needs to be negotiated. There are time when a direct blow is the only way through and it’s sacrilege to compromise. Shoot to kill, but listen carefully, and protect yourself however you can. This is a scrappy influence and you’re likely going to be asked to move forward with something major, without a lot of time to respond. You’ll make it work and you’ll be surprised at what you can handle during this time. Libra season is urging you to access your heart of gold at this full moon. The one of knightly valor that protects the innocent. You are learning lessons of tenderness as you fight to protect the vulnerable (even if the vulnerable is you). This is the precursive cleansing before 2020’s final eclipse season in November and December. You do not have time for inauthenticity, fakeness, or weakness. You are running out of room in your heart for bullshit.
With Chiron heavy on you now, the next two weeks are a test of your mettle, and you may feel pushed to heal a latent lack of self-worth that comes up at this time with work on the body: new exercise plan, new diet, new hair, new clothes. All of these can be great tools to get you feeling more confident, but if you start to realize you’re papering over a room within, pull the plug and sit with it. Maybe you don’t have to be perfect or as good as you used to be, maybe you are making it work in survival mode and learning to thrive there. We can’t help you with the feels—this is a moon where you go it alone and need to do things by yourself—but in a larger sense, the next two weeks will be healing. In that trip to the dentist kinda way. Like putting Bactine on a skinned knee or how you look at your ex’s instagram for old time’s sake just to see who they’re dating now. It’s brutal but it helps close the wound.
xoxo,
Hayley
Watch: Enola Holmes
Read: No One is Coming to Save Us by Stephanie Powell Watts
Listen: “Heart of Gold” - Neil Young
@meenaharris via twitter: “Women suffer so much in silence. Those who choose to speak, even in their toughest moments, give power to all of us.”